Here's my heart.

"I was wishing that my wishes were what God wished, and if my wishes were not what God wished, I wished that I could wish that my wishes would go away, but the wishes were still there."

-Passion & Purity, Elisabeth Elliot -

Oh-ho, spot on! Exactly how I felt on more than one occasion over the last year.

I know God gives, and God takes away..but why hasn't He taken these feelings of mine away?

I had this principle: I always thought that the man I give my heart to would be the man I marry. He would have my heart to hold, to love, to protect.

In retrospect, I think that perhaps I was a little misguided there.

I've come to realize that my heart belongs first and foremost to God - everything else will follow. The man I marry (IF i do, that is) will have to accept that, and I'm hoping that his heart belongs to God too.

I could live with that. :)

That was Lesson #2.

"..Light, light, light up the sky
Light up the sky to show me
You are with me
I, I, I can't deny
No, I can't deny
That You are right here with me
You've opened my eyes
So I can see You all around me
Light, light, light up the sky
Light up the sky to show me
You are with me.."

- Light up the Sky, The Afters -