Happy New Year's Eve!

new times, new people..

a new year, a new life.

looking back, she realized..

maybe it was the 2nd chance she hoped for..

that second shot at life.

=(

i'm leaving soon.

my heart hurts.

*sniffles*

Why sneakers and thongs rock and high heels don't.

Warning : this post contains some gross pictures. well, i think they're gross..they make my knees wobble. =P so..

VIEWER DISCRETION ADVISED!!

[you have been warned.]


Went last minute shopping for stuff to bring over to perth. got bored halfway and decided to bump into sta for fun. she in turn bumped into nick. he bumped back..and she bumped into me. or rather, stumbled, lost her balance and stepped on my left foot. hard.

series of events that happened in the next few seconds :

.................(oiks, get outta my way! pif.).......................

i looked down.

oh.

-_-"

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hey, wait a minute..

o.0

.

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.

O.O

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*OUCHHHHHHHHHH!!*




-_-"

sigh.

High heels are such a hazard.

Look what they did to my foot!

yukky, doncha think?

but it's not so bad anymore. doesn't hurt as much. well it does, when i think about it. which leads me to think that it's all in my head. the pain i mean.

sigh.

p.s. you may think, blame sta..or nick..or even me. but i think not. i think......BLAME THE HEELS!! XD

p.p.s. why do they use the word 'thongs' for slippers and undies? -_-" ish.

Merry Christmas!

mmm..had yummy dinner. cooked by yours truly. . =) ahaha. siblings, aunty and grandma made the rest. guess which dish it is. ;)

presents for the year. pretty cool poster eh?

yaaargh! FROGGGG!!

home alone for christmas.

btw, tmrw is called 'Boxing Day' not because it's MikeTyson's favourite day..it's coz people used to wrap and place their leftover food in boxes after their Christmas feasts. thanks for the info, Khang. =)

Merry Christmas everybody!

*whew* this takes a pretty long time... -_-"

Nothing ever goes the way it should.

it's christmas eve.

but im so not in the festive mood.

seems like everything i do or say just screws up. just like King Midas and his golden touch issue.

why can't people let go of what they hold dearly? (hey, didn't she just answer her own question?)

ugh.

sometimes..it's just a hell lot more complicated.

i'm sick, i'm tired. i don't know what to do.

*crawls into a big black hole*

to hell with good intentions.

btw, Merry Christmas, everyone.

10 more days.

not sure how im supposed to feel. lol.

we'll see what happens at the airport. =P

till then, packing..packing..MORE packing.

ugh.

all i know is..

i'll miss you. and you. and you and you and you and you..and you.

Staying up all night till 7 am waiting for results

has. got. to. be. one of the craziest. irrational. nonsensical. ideas. we..no, scratch that. sjane and mtyp. ever. came. up. with. and its not even my results. hoo-boy. (yes, now is the time you go -_-". wanna make that a double? go ahead. -_-"-_-")

but homies stick together. =) so we (khang, kai lun, jeremiah, ryan and i) stayed up for sjane, mtyp, roger, louis and tiff and yitian. [cel tried..but she failed oh-so-miserably -_- and ended up sleeping SO MUCH] anyway, here's a recap of how the night went. will try to make it a sensible post. if i fail, then you should probably realise that lack of sleep causes mild brain dsyfunction and lagginess. :)

right. started the night off at mike's place. had bbq as a pre-Liverpool vs ManU-match dinner. its officially decided. girls make better cooks than guys even though we come up with the occasional chao ta chicken wings and sausages. at least we dont complain that its hot. or that the heat is burning our arm hair off. or that the smoke is getting into our eyes. and according to louis, thats why girls should be in the kitchen cooking. o.0 i beg to differ.

anyway, many tense faces..yes, for the game, NOT our chicken wings! personally dont see what the big deal was. but then again, im not the footie type. (with the exception of hot guys on the team. yes, with nice hair. =) Torres shouldn't have changed his hair. make him miss his shots nia. well, thats what i think, ahah. coz he DID miss so many.) so without having ANY knowledge about football, (how come there's no OT when 2 teams draw? and how come 2 ppl tackling 1 isn't called double team? -.-) i supported Liverpool. coz i think they were the underdogs. and coz Louis is a Liverpool fan and an extremely important friend in times of need ;P (he is! he's got his 'special tissue' and a car.) teehee! sorry jane! so watch the match we did.

halfway it got pre-tty boring so a few of us diverted our attention to bridge (hey, isn't that what the grannies play?) instead. turned out to be a pretty addictive game. =P it kinda sucks to be jeremiah's partner. you tend to lose. ESPECIALLY when he bids 5 clubs. FIVE. crazy nut. =P but it okay, bridge wouldn't have been as entertaining without him around. i had my fair share of beginner's luck as well. ;) simply piah my cards and we win~ lalalala!

oh yeah, sjane's whining is so effective that it penetrates the TV screen, wakes the Man U goalkeeper up and bugs the Liverpool players so much til they cannot score. quote : "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" so much so that Man U beat Liverpool 1-0. haih. wasted my breath shouting. so congrats to the Red Devils fans..but i hope Liverpool turns around and kicks ass the next time they meet. just for the sake of it.

After the match we headed off to mtyp's house where we planned to stay over (note: not sleepover. just stay over.) yeah. supposedly no sleeping involved. apparently some ppl broke the rules. -_- so what did we do? spent the night playing more bridge...asshole Taiti (where i worked my way up from becoming Asshole 3 to Secretary!) and cheat a.k.a bullsh*t.

got bored halfway. decided to grab some food from McD (we dont call it Mackers here in Msia) but twas closed so we headed to the nearest 7-11 shop we could find. bought myself some choc milk *yum yum* and some crackers. kai lun seems to think that guys buying milk is a gay-fairy-smth-along-those-lines thing. i dont see why. =.= and he laughed at me. coz the milk doesn't make me grow. whatever lun!

headed back to mtyp's house. by then it was bout an hour to go to 4 am. (7 am Melbourne time) so we talked crap and bridged till it was 3.45 am. and then........*drumrolll*.......results were out!! i'm so proud of allll of them. =) absolutely terrific scores. shall not start listing down TERs here. but just know that I'm sooooooooooo proud of all of you, you've all done great. good on you. =) bravo bravo~ excellente!! it was so worth my staying up and lookin like an escaped panda from a zoo in China. no kidding. and yes, i forgive you for the "oh no, i think i'll fail my SPESH i think i'll do badly in SPESH", mtyp. *deaf earrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr*

lol. somewhere along the way i fell asleep for a while..then when i woke up kai lun said i sounded like a man. -_- thats wad he said to sjane too. quote "eh, why girls sound like men after they wake up ah?" zzz. that was at 7 am. then louis dropped me home. and i slept thru till 1.30 pm.

the time now is 4 pm. i feel sleepy and disorientated and laggy. but if i sleep now, i won't be able to sleep tonight. so in conclusion, its gonna be a loooooooooong time before i do smth like this again. :)

oh and guys? don't forget...PARTAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! XD

p.s. wei, make it quick, only 2 weeks left ah.

p.p.s. did i ever tell you guys? i love u all to bits. =)

*gasp*

OMG OMG!! breakthrough! yes cel actually said this :

celeste - homeeeee says:
shopping here is so.... BLEH

Teehee. =) that's a first.

note : 'here' refers to kuching :)

I HATE DAYS LIKE THIS

when i wake up and find that i have an eyelid more (for no apparent reason)

OR (why doesn't anyone seem to notice this OR? -_- ppl keep asking me why i've been crying)

an eyelid less (IF i cried the night before..).

right now my right eye has 3 lines. 3 LINES!

AND it gets stuck there for quite some time.

my eye feels so friggin uncomfortable.

ish.

-_= <-- my current condition. [note : - is my normal eye. = IS NOT.]

With heartfelt thanks.

"There is a tide in the affairs of men.

Which, taken at the flood, leads on to fortune;

Omitted, all the voyage of their life

Is bound in shallows and in miseries.

On such a full sea are we now afloat,

And we must take the current when it serves,

Or lose our ventures."

-Shakespeare-

After watching the season finale of One Tree Hill (it so totally rocks my world!) I'm reminded of my high school days, in particular Graduation Year.

Happiness, sadness, excitement, joy, jealousy, resentment, forgiveness, togetherness..a plethora of emotions just hit me when i think back on those years.

It seems like school's really the safest place to be. away from the world..away from the realities of life. you're surrounded by your friends, teachers spoonfeed you, you know what you have to do, it's just really straightforward and simple (of course, excluding the horrendously complicated dramas that surface once in a while..ish.).

But to all my Lodgian peers who graduated with me in 2006..Form 5A, B and C. High school wasn't easy. but we made it. =) and now we're scattered all over the world, i just want you to know that you've ALL made a difference in my life. We may not have been close (and i regret it) but you all played a part in my life. So here's a BIG thank you to everyone. for the support and the smiles, the greetings and the laughter, for the challenges and trials..and for the best years of my life.

p.s.

aidan, if you're reading this, there's gonna be an alumni in 6 years RIGHT? =P

p.p.s.

someone pls remind aidan! =)

For a moment, it seemed like time had stood still..
we were back to where it had stopped..
everything was as it had been..
and we just picked up from there and continued with our way..
it was good..it was perfect..

Just for a moment.

what am i supposed to do?

how am i supposed to feel?

argh. i need answers.

"Should've done something
But I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you

Should've said something

But I've said it enough

By the way my words were faded

Rather waste some time with you."

That makes the two of us. How totally relevant.

=D

92.3.

YATTTTTTTTTTTTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

yayayayayayayayayayayyayayayayayyayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Thank you God!!!

what am i to you?

parents finally left for perth. thank God they could check in their 81++ kg luggages. LOL. yeah, the power of prayer.. =)

the house seems strangely...empty. even though there are still 6 of us around. even on the way back from the airport, no one really seemed to talk much. except for me and my siblings..forever yakking away. but i think i'll be the one quiet on New Year's Day. when i leave kuching..no more cheap good food..and the people!! Gawd i'll miss everyone so much. =( *sigh*

so this is it..one month to enjoy all i can in kuching. go out, play baddie, eat, be merry, go crazy..hang out with my homies..bond, play 'The Memory Game', die of boredom when i follow the girls out shopping..one month to pack TONS & TONS & TONS of stuff. bleh. speaking of which..this happened while i was helping my mom to pack. not sure if you'll catch the humor but it was so funny right there and then.

we came across some old Christian thingies..one was a silver cross pendant that was turning black..the other was a big cross to hang on a door or smth..except that Jesus was missing a nail in his left hand and the nail for his feet.

Me : Mom, do i throw this away? (show her blackish pendant)
Mom : Err...would it be a sin to throw it away?
Me : LOL. i dunno.
Mom : *shrugs* ahh, just keep it la.

(few minutes later)

Me : hey mom, what about this? it's gonna fall off soon. (the big cross) is it possible to nail him back?
Mom : Err...wouldn't it be like..crucifying him all over again?
Me : Uh..yeah hor.

and we both just sat there comtemplating and looking confused till we both burst out laughing for quite a while.

So in the end, we kept every single thing. =) so all's good.

25 more days till i see perth again..5 more days to results.

ladidah~

kuching is gonna be one big super huge lake soon. -____________-"