i cry here, because i can.

it's getting harder to suck it all in.

no, i am not angry. it's gone beyond that point.

perhaps i am frustrated. discouraged.

no, i think i feel disappointment, more than anything else.

there's probably a sense of helplessness too. it hasn't reached hopelessness yet. i pray it won't.

it makes me want to cry everytime i think about it.

but i can't let it show, because everyone else is feeling the same way too. even more so, actually.

i gotta try my hardest to be strong and build up what's been torn down, what's being torn down. maybe it won't repair things 100%, but i hope it helps somewhat.

so please help me dear God, i REALLY need it.

"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."

-Proverbs 17:22

*cries*