134 and still going

so, today was the big day. Normal Systems midsem.

decided to skip my 8 am lecture to study at home. left home a good half hour earlier (takes me about an hour to get to uni) but buses were running late today so i turned up 5 mins just before the exam started, all hot and abit sweaty (don't underestimate the power of stubby legs here. :P) with eyes tearing (wind got to my eyes) and out of breath. and then i rummage my bag for my labcoat and my nametag and spend another 3 mins frantically looking for my pencil case, which i FORGOT to bring..of all things.

GG. what a way to start the exam lor.

and then the exam..it was pretty bad. i mean, i guess it was okay, but the thing is, you can't be sure whether or not you're right? and no one knows whether or not they're right..because somehow, veins and arteries look alike in preserved cadavers. no matter what the books tell you, or no matter what your lecturer says. hmpf. its that feeling of..uncertainty, i guess. pass? fail? or borderline pass? kinda thing. so i just did the next best thing. i winged it. answered what i could, regurgitated whatever my goldfish memory allowed me to..and i think i managed to make up enough crap to start a trilogy. i think all that buildup of stress and tension and cortisol levels for a lousy test, was enough to break anyone down. or get them superduperuberly depressed.

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but he said, "dont get depressed whatever happens mel, count your blessings, with your little fingers.."

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so count my blessings i did. halfway through the exam, when i felt that i just couldn't be bothered anymore. and the very first few blessings that i thanked God for were these :

texts. each and everyone of them wishing me all the best for the midsem.

and a note from my mummy. asking me to drink chicken soup. :D

to add to the list of blessings are the people who've been praying for me and encouraging me all week.

see, that's already more blessings than my little fingers can count. :)

and that's why and how i came out, still smiling.

thanks guys. <3