teehee.

before anything else..

(if you're reading this..) HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE BEH LI CHER!! =) i miss you heaps.

and..

**Warning : this post contains what will appear to be random pieces of useless information that will make you go *dot dot dot* and *sweat* and say *WHAT THE..?!* xD so yeah, don't say i didn't warn ya!**

righto, here goes. today's FAHB (foundies of animal and human bio) lecture was the most interesting by far. titled 'Human Cultural Evolution', it was about the human race and theories people have come up with. here's some of the things i took away with me.

- mothers in some african tribes (or ulu ulu places which don't practice birth control) actually have to place value in their children and choose one over the other or risk losing all of them which is a big big big big BIG NO NO, coz then there'd be no uh..future generations to uh..carry on the..longetivity of the human race? [apologies! i don't know how to put it into words. >< ]

- females prefer slightly feminized male facial shapes..and somehow it's affected by the menstrual cycle [o.0 ya meh..]

- firstborns usually have more children eventhough laterborns have sex first [i think this is crap..but just in case..CHOPSTICKS at the ready! xD]

i like this one :

- the 2:4 ratio. guys with long ring fingers compared to the index finger: maths, physics, engineering; run and draw well, good at perceiving shapes; autism and musicians. "Men who make lots of good music make lots of good sperm." -John Manning [i just lost it. hilarious when u actually think about who enters your mind first. xD ...and no, im not telling. =P]

there's heaps load of other stuff that i think is just plain hogwash. but pretty interesting all the same. yeah i know, we're all going -___________-" now aren't we.

welll..good thing about this was that i didn't fall asleep during this lecture. for once!

..but it is terribly sad to know that i actually need things like this in lectures for me to stay awake.

sighs.

cause all too soon, the clock will strike midnight

we have so much to be thankful for.

my heart goes out to Steven Curtis Chapman and his family.

it's the saddest news i've heard since last june.

i wonder how i'd cope with it if it were me.

i can always say 'it coulda been worse,' put on a brave front, be optimistic and smile.

but deep inside, would i be raging and blaming God for not intervening? like, He KNOWS. when, where, how and why it will happen. predestination is the word. yet He doesn't do anything to stop it. to stop the hurt..the pain..the suffering.

sometimes it doesn't make any sense at all. of all people, why them? but then again, God is God. He knows best. so, in the end it's our call, we decide the angle from which we look at things.

like one of my favourite lines in 'A Walk to Remember' goes - "I don't need a reason to be angry at God."

Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman.

fade to grey

today was a day that i wasted.

decided to skip my first lecture this morning (FMC) coz i was just too tired and sleepy [i have no idea why as i slept relatively earlier compared to previous nights =.=' maybe the more you sleep the more tired you get? o.0] woke up and decided that i'd go to uni for an MGC lecture and another lecture about primates and then hang around till 3 coz someone told me that there would be a post-mortem on the last FMC midsem. so went to uni i did. then when i got there, i found out that...

..there wasnt an MGC lecture for some reason. lecturer didnt turn up. ><
..and the post-mortem had already passed at 10.30 am. found out that the lecturer stuffed our marks up as well. but its okay. im used to it, he's always stuffing things up. and i mean that in a nice as-a-matter-of-fact way. yes, he's the lecturer who had to give everyone free bonus marks because there were typos in his testpaper(which he only completed a few hours before the test itself.) and no, i'm not trying to be mean. we're seriously used to it. :)

after that i just couldnt be stuffed hanging around uni to attend a lecture about apes and in which i ALWAYS take the opportunity to hone my drawing skills just so that i don't fall asleep. and we're talking pages upon pages of random doodles here. >< so i went home. and tried lectopia-ing but i fell asleep.

so all in all, i wasted 2 hours travelling to and from uni, 1 hour wasted at uni, and about 3-4 hours on sleeping. oh. forgot to mention, went out to grab some groceries as well. took about an hour. so there goes my day.

for the sake of my conscience, i managed to get through 4 lectures on lectopia, 1 online assessment and a summary of my psychology case studies. sounds productive yea? =) i do feel abit better..and less guilty. until i think of how much has actually gone into my head and i realize that not much has and everything's just a pile of mishmash in my brain. so it's back to square one. sighs.

and when i'm staring at the computer screen at 1130 pm and my mind's telling me that it's had enough of MGC for the night, i start to wonder about things.

i wonder how long this is gonna keep up.
i read mtyp and sjane's blog and wonder how the whole bunch of them are doing in melbourne. there's this dull ache i feel everytime i read their blog. a sense of longing. and as disconcerting as it sounds, maybe feeling a tad bit disconnected? i don't know.
i think about china and burma and how the world has gotten so much better at being rotten.
i wonder if my fellow pod friends are stressing. i'm not even sure if im stressing at the moment. should i be?
i wonder why life always ALWAYS has to be so complicated..when it can be so simple.

and then there's always this train of thought that i just can't quite seem to get rid off.

i wonder about you .

tonight.

you know how it's one of those times when you just feel so down?
one of those times when you try to smile, but only manage a half-grimace
when all you feel like listening to is silence
and everything you hear just seems to sound so bad
and how sometimes, it takes more than happy thoughts and food?


you know how it's one of those times?

what makes it worse is that you don't even know why.

FND MED CHEM PODI 1107...

...went fine today. not extreeemely well, but good enough.

:)

thanks for the prayers, guys.

*hugs to all*








and now, time to de-stress with the sister.

you're probably thinking, "WHAT IN THE WORLD?!" but hopefully this answers everything. =)

For you, mom.

hey mom, things are abit different this year, instead of a card, here's a blog post for you! yeah, more technology-advanced now. =)

so guys, meet my mommy.

she's funny..and lame (somehow i think this runs in the family..)

she cooks REALLY good food. i reckon her laksa's the best *yum*

she's the really organized type, getting things done around the house. thank God for that.

she's cool. with cool hair. xD

she's still taller than me. lol.

and she's my heroine. always there to help me pick out what to wear for which occasion, and what matches what and whether i should wear heels or not. and i can always count on her to have a matching set of accessories, like, 2 minutes before a function. xD

i reckon my mom stands out. not because of her hair..
okay, maybe coz of her hair. xD but that's only like an added asset.

like, it sorta helps when you're trying to look for her in the crowd. hee. =P

my mommy stands out because she's simply THE BEST. she rocks. =)

so, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, mommy dearest!!

I love you heaps!

stress post.

...medical chem is fast becoming my least liked subject. which i think really sucks coz i LOVED chem. ><

...i think labs are the lame-gayness.

...if it takes me a week to cover one unit, it means i've already run out of time.
5 weeks to exams + assignments along the way + 6 exam units + 2 exam pracs = die.

...i don't even know how and where to start studying. ><

...i'm actually worried about passing all my units.

...thinking about things i should be thankful for instead of complaining helps a tad bit. happy thoughts! :)

...food ALWAYS helps.

...i cant wait for Sem 1 to end. ><

...i need sleep.

...i should be studying.

...uni sucks!! :(


*sadssad* *cries*