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today was a day that i wasted.

decided to skip my first lecture this morning (FMC) coz i was just too tired and sleepy [i have no idea why as i slept relatively earlier compared to previous nights =.=' maybe the more you sleep the more tired you get? o.0] woke up and decided that i'd go to uni for an MGC lecture and another lecture about primates and then hang around till 3 coz someone told me that there would be a post-mortem on the last FMC midsem. so went to uni i did. then when i got there, i found out that...

..there wasnt an MGC lecture for some reason. lecturer didnt turn up. ><
..and the post-mortem had already passed at 10.30 am. found out that the lecturer stuffed our marks up as well. but its okay. im used to it, he's always stuffing things up. and i mean that in a nice as-a-matter-of-fact way. yes, he's the lecturer who had to give everyone free bonus marks because there were typos in his testpaper(which he only completed a few hours before the test itself.) and no, i'm not trying to be mean. we're seriously used to it. :)

after that i just couldnt be stuffed hanging around uni to attend a lecture about apes and in which i ALWAYS take the opportunity to hone my drawing skills just so that i don't fall asleep. and we're talking pages upon pages of random doodles here. >< so i went home. and tried lectopia-ing but i fell asleep.

so all in all, i wasted 2 hours travelling to and from uni, 1 hour wasted at uni, and about 3-4 hours on sleeping. oh. forgot to mention, went out to grab some groceries as well. took about an hour. so there goes my day.

for the sake of my conscience, i managed to get through 4 lectures on lectopia, 1 online assessment and a summary of my psychology case studies. sounds productive yea? =) i do feel abit better..and less guilty. until i think of how much has actually gone into my head and i realize that not much has and everything's just a pile of mishmash in my brain. so it's back to square one. sighs.

and when i'm staring at the computer screen at 1130 pm and my mind's telling me that it's had enough of MGC for the night, i start to wonder about things.

i wonder how long this is gonna keep up.
i read mtyp and sjane's blog and wonder how the whole bunch of them are doing in melbourne. there's this dull ache i feel everytime i read their blog. a sense of longing. and as disconcerting as it sounds, maybe feeling a tad bit disconnected? i don't know.
i think about china and burma and how the world has gotten so much better at being rotten.
i wonder if my fellow pod friends are stressing. i'm not even sure if im stressing at the moment. should i be?
i wonder why life always ALWAYS has to be so complicated..when it can be so simple.

and then there's always this train of thought that i just can't quite seem to get rid off.

i wonder about you .