melting moments

when i was young..

i was afraid of the dark because i'd get locked in a dark toilet everytime i was being naughty.

when i was young..

my leg got trapped between the grills of the little drain at the school playground.

when i was young..

i peed in the car, except it wasn't our car, it was a car that my dad had borrowed from a friend on that particular day.

when i was young..

i didn't like going to Sunday School because the very first girl i met there said 'What the hell?' and i thought it was just waaaaay wrong to say stuff like that in church.

when i was young..

my friend and i were going to chip in to buy food from the school canteen so she told me to just grab her share from her purse, but her mom saw me doing it and accused me of stealing money from my friend.

when i was young..

i fell for a guy who played basketball and could jump super high and run super fast.

when i was young..

i fell in love with the drums, formed a band with my girlfriends called Dreamcatcher, and had hopes of becoming rich and famous one day.

when i was young..

i fell for another guy who also played basketball and actually thought that he might be The One.

when i was young..

i quit Dreamcatcher because he asked me to.

when i was young..

i half-fell for another guy while still being attached because Perth was this new, strange place to me and we had a lot in common.

when i was young..

i cried in the plane all the way to Singapore because I was moving to Perth and he didn't come to the airport to see me off even though he promised that he would the night before, and it was New Year's Day too.

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Okay, so i did not just write all that to let you readers know that i was young and stupid. Nor am i writing to brag about them, i am actually really ashamed of some of the things i've mentioned. But looking back, i laugh at all those moments which seemed really HUGE at the time. Life's just like that, aye, and while it's true that it's the painful bits that stick out the most, give it a while, and most of it will become something trivial to laugh about over coffee.

I'd have to say that coming to Perth was the best thing that's happened in the 20 years i've lived so far. It was here that the foundation of my faith was renewed and strengthened; it was here that I realize that long-distance relationships are actually harder than they seem; it was here that I finally understand what my aunties and my mom meant when they always told me that there're many other fishes in the sea.

In so many ways, i am still like a little girl - thunderstorms scare me, i love playgrounds, i look like one - it has been in Perth, that i have grown. It's by His grace that i'm going to this awesome church, that i've been 'adopted' into a family that's well-extended across the church (seriously, everyone's related to everyone!) and I've learnt so many valuable lessons that i wish i'd known when i was younger.

And now i realize that i don't actually know what the point of this post is - except that i'm loving it here in Perth and i wouldn't trade places with anyone to be anywhere else in the world (okay, i lie, i would really love to trade places and go to camp in a day's time!), but yes.

This is Home now. :)

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For the record, i am still afraid of the dark, i wish i'd gone to Sunday School more, neither of the relationships worked out, i don't think i will ever attempt long-distance relationships again (well, not if i can help it), i ditched the idea of becoming rich and famous, and i am still WFPC.